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Irritated! Today is pay day and he is already concerned about what has been paid, what is left, and the things we need for Tatyana. Amazing! I just can't believe that! We need a couple of things for her and he makes it seem like we are spending $50 more! His "comfort zone" is a grand, and already we are under that. I guess we won't be doing shit for the holiday. So, I told him so. What good is it going to do us to go check on buying a house when he's having a hissy fit because we are already under $1000? The house we want to rent is $1000 too. I don't get it. I guess I'll have the experience of meeting someone new and maybe having dinner some place where I haven't before.

Crash!

I can feel it coming. The crash is coming. At work. Admissions to be exact. Nothing I can do but sit and wait for it to happen. I hate it when this happens. The good thing is it isn't my fault this time, or any other actually. It won't make it any easier when it happens though. I know it is coming. Sadness.

TJ and Tatyana are coming to pick me up today from work to take me to a nice restaurant for dinner. Old Spaghetti Factory! How sweet of them. Tomorrow is out to Vancouver to try it all over again. I confirmed with Stephanie that she would be there, and I even beat her to it! Cute, I thought, I knew she was going to, she did last time too. I think we will be trying something new and exciting over there in Vancouver for dinner tomorrow night. I will be bringing left overs for lunch tomorrow from tonights dinner. They have huge portions, I love that! Last time we were there, Christina talked dirty to me on my cell phone, what memories!

I miss her. I guess she was sick but is now better. She might be coming up this weekend too. I tried to invite myself to Genny's so I can see both of them too, but she won't let me and is having no part of my invitation to her home. Sadness again.

I'm ready for the weekened!

Tuesday

Well, what an interesting start to a day, and it's 1:23 p.m.! We are 3 people short today. Tomorrow, the big wigs come to visit. It's been wet, almost raining outside which is weird, since yesterday it was like 90. I'm excited for the weekend to be here already. We are going to visit with Sherry, I'm walking at the golf course with Bruce and I have a 3 day weekend.

My friend Susan who went to church with me and her son Robert will be coming again this Sunday. She really enjoyed our church and I was tickled pink about that. She might even be joining our Bunco group. We are having a pot luck this time, which I totally spaced off. Mom was going to bring Polsa kibassa and I told her no, to pick another dish.

Today I got the "surprise" after getting to work, so I hope it is over with by this weekend so I can go swimming with Tatyana. My choice for dinner tonight, and then I have to go to the store, take back TJ's movies, and go to my aunt's house. Plus, it's bath night.

TJ said he got something for both Tatyana and myself and it is on each of our beds for when we get home tonight. I get to choose dinner tonight. Not sure what it will be either. Jen also couldn't decide. She has 3 people to help her decide though. I usually make tuna and noodles for Tatyana and myself when we are alone. TJ hates that dish and won't eat it. I don't know if I feel like making that or not tonight.

I did get to talk to our President today about my medical insurance coding and billing class here. She is checking into it for me to see if in fact my entire program would be paid for, except books and registration fee. That would make it so that I would have to complete the practicum, and have to be good with attendance, rather than if I audit class, I wouldn't have to do the practicum and only attend 2 nights a week rather than 4. Difference being besides that is diploma finishing the class, and time. I kind of like the idea of not being registered and not taking practicum, just taking the certification test and being certified and getting a job in this new career. There are quite a few out there according to my search and pay Very well compared to what I make now. I will hear back from our president today or tomorrow at the latest and make a decision then.

The House Part 2

Well, we went from here at work, to I205 to go to Vancouver and we get to the I84 split and I ask TJ, do you have the paper work. His reply, What paperwork?? So, he takes the 84 exit, we rush home, and I call the people we are supposed to be meeting. We get the things together that we need but I had to reschedule because it was already 10 after 5 and we were supposed to be there at 6:00. The traffic going back on 84 was ugly and we would have sat for a very long time. I rescheduled for Tuesday, but TJ works swing shift on Tuesday night. So, again I have to reschedule! I think we should wait instead of move into the house for rent. It would be best to put that kind of money into a house payment rather than rent. I love the house for rent, but that doesn't mean we should rush into this. We are in no hurry, so maybe we should relax a bit and wait. It still needs to be cleaned out anyway before we could move in. That is the general feedback I am getting is buy a house, not rent one. It truly is an investment. I emailed some concerns to Stephanie and she replied back to me with answers that I liked regarding my concerns.

Will was born in Washington, what a trip! That is cool! I don't like going to Vancouver only because I don't know my way around over there. A few people that work here live over there and swear by it. I guess once you get to know any area, it's ok.

I have so many things to do today that I wonder if I will get them all done. I'm at work now, until 1:00 or even later depending on what happens. We have only one visitor as of now and it's 11:23 a.m.

TJ said if I go to the store and buy some briquettes he would BBQ and I think I will do that. I have to do laundry after work, stop by my Mary Kay lady and pick up something I ordered, take the movies back, pick up Tatyana and get the house cleaned and dinner ready to go by 5:30 tonight. Also, I'm stopping by my Aunt's house to see my cousin after work. Taty is at my mom's swimming in her little pool. She graduated from swim lessons this last Wednesday. She is doing much better, but she needs to continue lessons. Tomorrow I want to go to Auntie's house to swim with her after church. My friend accepted my invitation to our church with her son Robert who also just finished lessons with Tatyana. Service begins at 9:30 but we need to get Robert registered and Taty signed in class before service, and then get a good seat, so 9:00 is what I am shooting for. Service is out just before 11:00 and then home to change, eat a little bit and go to Auntie's. Leave her place at 2:00 to be home before TJ and then we are changing clothes and going to the state fair in Salem. We love the state fair here. I never went as a kid so I get all kinds of excited when we are there. All the animals, and contests for them, food, the chair lift that we always take, rides for Tatyana, the free things they give out, clothes, accessories, the smell of it all. We just love it. I am sad I didn't get to put in my 2 mile walk this morning at the golf course but I have to work. I'm sure tomorrow I will get it all in walking around the fairgrounds. 94 is the high tomorrow! 92 today. I love the heat, as long as it isn't too hot.

Next weekend is the 3 day weekend and I've talked with Sherry who is my second best friend and also my other child care provider. She is missing Taty and wants to know if she will see her before summer is over with. So, I told her next weekend we'll come out and see her and visit. Hopefully the weather will be accommodating as it is this weekend. She has a hot tub and a swing set. Tatyana loves going over there to play. She also has 4 kitties left and I talked with her about letting us have one next weekend. She has to think about it. There is one boy and his name is Buckwheat. I think if she will let us, we will take him. Inside cat only which is fine with me. He is a crazy little guy, 3 months old now. We'll see what happens with hit. Only need to buy a box, food and some toys. I would like to get a scratching post at some point in time. I think a cat needs that high up space to be where they can have their own abode. My dad's cats always had a 6 foot high one with 3 pedistols on it, and they loved it. He built it himself. Maybe Richard would build me one if we take the cat off their hands? I'll have to ask him.

I created my own myspace, but I still don't know how to manipulate any of it to have the page show the way all the others do. It sure takes a long time to fix the things, time goes by rather quickly.

Jen, your boy is funny! I'm glad you are back home.

House

We went to look at the house for rent last night. It was beautiful. I really like it a lot. Tonight we are scheduled to go to Vancouver and meet with mortgageyes.com people to see about purchasing a home, rather than renting one. Hopefully they will tell us something we haven't already heard in a positive light. That would be refreshing. TJ and I talked quite a bit this morning about things that will need to change in order to make this work either way. We can do it, for sure.

I'm still tired today, but not nearly like I was yesterday. That was ugly. Tonight is orientation night for evening students. Tomorrow is day orientation, and I work Saturday. Modular start is on Monday. I've been so tired lately that I can't imagine doing evening classes for modular and get home between 9 and 10 at night, to turn around and get up at 5:00 in the morning. I'm tired just thinking about it. I would have to be at class in order to learn my things too. I doubt I will do it, but I would like to think that I would.

We have ipods to view now instead of questionaires. Some people like them, others don't. It's a 10 minute presentation. Kind of long I think. All for Generation Why.

I hope tonight doesn't take long, I'm already tired and didn't get to walk last night because it was Tatyana's last night of swim lessons. I got the paper to call and get her scheduled for the next session, which I think she needs. She is just getting used to the water and her confidence is just starting to build. Her teacher made stronger comments this time, rather than last. I just realized that she has taken this same class over as the last one she took last year. She needed it though and needs to follow up as well. I told TJ and I think we will be getting her started in the next session as well.

I spoke to my new friend Susan about church this weekend, and she and her son Robert will be coming. I'm rather excited about it. I don't know if it is going to be contemporary or not for the service we will attend, but I can only attend that one, I have too many things to do this weekend. Christina was supposed to take Tatyana, but I don't think I can now, because of my schedule. If she would have been here when she said she was going to, that would have been different. I must do laundry after work on Saturday and I need to stop by my Mary Kay lady on the way home as well. TJ informed me we are going to the state fair on Sunday after his work, so that really pushes me for time. I'll get it done some how, I have to.

What a great day~

I'm in an unusually great mood today. Then, I read Jen's blog. That made me sad. I feel bad Jen, but I really am leary of posting another post in your blog with Eric and his assertiveness. I'd rather not go through that again. It feels like he might bite. But, truly, I am sorry that you are lonely. I do hope that someone new and exciting comes into your life, and you get over Brian and learn to forgive him, so that you can move on. It is much easier said than done, is true, but it is something that isn't going away and only you can fix. I know you can do it. Go Jen!! Don't forget, I'm your number one fan, despite Eric! LOL!

I have to work this Saturday. Then, I have to do the laundry so I can take my new friend to church with me on Sunday. She has graciously accepted my invitation and her son will be in Tatyana's class. They swim together twice a week, and she has just moved her recently from South Carolina. So, Sunday at 9:30 we will be going to church together and I'm excited!

We got our taxes back yesterday! Over $200 and it couldn't have come at a better time when we really needed it! I'm am very excited about it, because most usually we don't get any taxes back. It all goes to TJ's back child support and that sucks, but not this year!

Another good thing happened. We went to look at a house yesterday. It is across the street from us, and rent is $1,000. Our current landlord is renting it, and so I made an appointment this evening to view the inside of it. 3 bedrooms, 2 bath, garage, small yard, 2 levels, fire place. Still same school district for Tatyana, which is great. The only thing I didn't care for was that there are no paved side walks for me to walk along at night when I do my walk. I will just have to walk around the neighborhood on the side of the street and walk a long block as I do now.

On Thursday night, we are scheduled to go to Vancouver and visit with mortgageyes.com people and see about buying a house, and do some paper work to see what we are qualified for. I have a feeling it will be renting the house first before buying comes into the picture. I really liked the house, but we have to see if we fit in there first, which would be up stairs. Still no dog, it's too small and it's a fairly new house. We will see by this evening.

Better

I am getting better now, since I have my meds. Spencer was very sweet and kind to me by calling and telling me how concerned he was about me not having them. I told TJ what had been said, and so he got my prescription for me last night. The ugly thing he did was call me at work to tell me how much the damn thing cost. I usually get samples, but this time, I got a prescription. Who cares how much it cost? We get his every month and I don't tell him how much they cost, just get them filled and be happy that I have good insurance. That pissed me off, but I vented and now I'm fine.

Saturday is Laurel's BBQ and I'm looking forward to going. When TJ gets home and changes clothes, we'll head out. Sherwood is a long drive for us, but should be worth it.

I spoke with Andrew yesterday briefly. He amazes me. Some times I wonder what I even see in him. He called here at the school because his FA wasn't cancelled when he dropped. It was good to hear his voice, but I'm pushing the rest of him away for the better of me. Only makes sense so far as I can see. Why bother chasing after someone's friendship.

The State Fair is at the end of the month and we are going for sure. I'm looking very forward to going again this year. I asked if Bruce could come with us, and they both had a hissy fit. It's for Family only they tell me. Bruce is family I say. He's not Immediate family they tell me. End of subject.

I'm thinking of going to school again in the evening, but I have to first learn of the cost of this program for me being an employee. It's 4 nights a week from 5 to 9:30. It would take me 2 months to do the practicum, so I wouldn't be finished until March. As tired as I am now, I am wondering if I can do this or not?? I wonder if TJ would give Taty bathes while I'm at school. God knows I don't have time to do it in the morning for sure.

The Next Day

of another boring day. It has been ok up until now. That would be why I'm blogging. I liked Melissa's entry today. Interesting questions. I haven't been able to find her myspace yet, going through people I know and clicking on their pages. It won't let me sign in to read Jennifer's, her eyes are quite mysterious. It took me a while to study them and then I realized, I know those eyes! DA~~

Didn't watch a movie last night, but seeing as how Heather is spending the night, perhaps we can watch one of two really good movies TJ rented. We don't have to get up early tomorrow morning and that in itself will be really weird!! I'm looking forward to sleeping in. I did not want to get up this morning at all. It's worse to come to work and have to find things to do. I have managed thus far. Lunch is approaching soon.

I'm glad Jen's is alive and doing better.

Another Day

Most interesting about Jen. I hope you are ok out there. I am worried because you haven't blogged or responded yet. I hope you didn't do something crazy like kill them all and let God sort them out. That would not be good at all. Perhaps you are just busy is all, and I hope that is the case.

I see Kelly is a grandmom again. How cool is that?! I am happy for her, she is probably an awesome grandma.

I hate being bored. I wonder what Melissa is doing right about now? Probably getting ready for work. I hope Financial Aid has something for me to do today. I wonder if Laurel will be here today. I didn't have an 8:00 person yesterday. Laurel wasn't here either.

I did get to walk a couple of laps last night after dinner and before taking Taty to swim lessons. She is doing much better in the water and I am hoping by the end of summer, she will be able to swim. I exchanged phone numbers with Susan, who is Tatyana's swim buddy, Robert, it's his mom. We sit and chat for the half hour while they are swimming and time seems to just fly by. She is from South Carolina which reminds me of Melissa's sister. She has the cutest accent when she talks. She is very calm, which a lot of people are from back East. Different upbringing and life style altogether. I am glad we have met and taken the time to get to know each other. Her son Robert is cute too. He is younger than Tatyana, but they play well together. In their apartments, there is a swim pool, and that is why we exchanged numbers.

Talked to Bruce for 20 minutes last night while I was walking. He still hasn't gotten his prescription via mail from CA yet. I hope he gets it today. Someone in their house took a whole bottle of pills that were his. When he came here he had 2 months worth and it's been about a month and he is out. I am glad he is staying here instead of going back to CA and trying to find work. His wife and family are doing fine so far there. He is still talking with her and that is good. We have walked together at Glendoveer and he enjoyed it. He is also a golfer too, and he was interested in watching as we walked. It is good to spend time with him again. I have missed him over the years. He is just like my brother. I relate with him and communicate with him very well. I hope he can make it through living with his mom and Uncle Pete. They can be obnoxious at times, and more often than not, they are obnoxious. They both speak loudly, and sleep a lot. Uncle Pete has no manners, or if he does he doesn't use them. They are demanding, volunteer your services without talking to you first about it. And Uncle Pete is lazy. But, Bruce seems to have adjusted, he does what my grandpa did with my grandma for years, tunes it out. On Saturday after breakfast with the girls, we are going to meet and walk again at the golf course. Heather's party starts at 1:20 at Blue Lake and we'll eat lunch there. It will be weird spending time with TJ on a Saturday. Sunday is supposed to be 90 and Monday as well, but we'll have to wait and see how much truth there is to that when it gets here. It's Oregon and can change in a moments notice, and usually to rain.

TJ made nachos last night, it was great! Tonight he works swing shift, so Taty and I will probably have tuna and noodles and then we have to go to Big Lots to get Heather's present. We might watch a movie tonight, who knows. Breanna came over last night at 8:00 with Harley her dog, but I was already indisposed and Taty was in the bath tub, so I didn't get to see her. She is the neighborhood girl who I take to Bunco with me. Very sweet girl. I hope I can get my walk in tonight even with having Tatyana. Maybe after shopping and all that, we will go to the park and she can ride her bike and I can walk. TJ took her to the park yesterday and they had a picnic lunch and then she played. Ran into a girl she played with at the park at swim lessons last night. That was cool. We have a lot of awesome parks around Gresham.

Trippy

What a trippy day. The food was good the other day. I have taken my lunch so far 2 days now and not had my every day Subway food.

I just had a lady call and ask for Melissa Yard! That was trippy.

Jen is about to explode over there in Maine, that is trippy.

I got an hour and 15 minute lunch because Laurel isn't here to give me a break before 11:00 and I have lunch at noon. That was nice, and trippy.

Melanie comes back tomorow, that will be nice. I won't have to wait to go to the bathroom until 11, or try to find someone to do the phones so I can go.

Talked to Christina yesterday, that was trippy. Changed the location of the party and we get to have Heather spend the night on Friday night and Saturday we can ALL sleep in, THAT my friends WILL BE TRIPPY!!!

So, I got 5 phone calls in a row for Fucking ASHMEAD! That is irritating, not trippy. I am such a good and sweet person to not get preterbed at the people who work at our Corporate Call Center who came specifically from Jerry's kids on the latest and greatest Telathon!

How Nice of You~

So, I'm in the elevator going to lunch, and Chantel is in the elevator. She tells me that tomorrow is her last day. How nice of her, don't you think? I don't. Every time I get used to something or someone, they go away. That sucks! She is going to be the stay at home mom. I'm happy for you, it just doesn't show is all.

Today is a little better. Not busy enough though. TJ is making us dinner tonight. Chicken tenders breaded and fried. I love it when he cooks. Perhaps some potato salad and purple and green grapes. They have been incredibly sweet lately.

We went to Sherry's last weekend and Rich started his fire in the pit and they BBQ'd hot dogs over the fire. Taty got to play ont he new swing set and played with both girls and Harley which is Rich's daughter's little girl. She is cute, only 3 I think.

Crystal gave me a Mandalay Bay one dollar coin the other day from when they all went to Las Vegas for Operation Ignite. I thought that was way cool, and it was heavy too.

Vanessa gave me this fan like looking thing with lights that come on at the end of it. I gave it to Tatyana and she loves it! I knew she would. And in case she didn't, I would have loved to have it. That didn't happen though.

Laurel is gone for the day. 2:00 and she is gone. Got here at 10:30 today though. That's earlier than it has been. She is going to get her hair done.

Saturday I am walking my 2 miles. I haven't walked in 2 nights! For sure tonight I am walking. I bought a pair of shoes for the Gen Y dress for tomorrow at work. I have my outfit already picked out. It will be trippy wearing those kind of clothes at work. Saturday at 1:00 is Dillon's birthday party at Blue Lake. Taty and I will be going and taking mom too. It's good for her to get out and about. I will pick up something from Target or Wallmart on Saturday after my walk. Sunday pending on weather, we'll go to Auntie's and swim. I want to get some of those arm floaty things for Taty to practice floating in the water and kicking her legs. She bends them too much when she is swimming. Doing better at it though. I hope by the end of summer she can swim on her own. She is doing better with her head under water too. I am tired today. Went to bed at 10 and that is too late for me. The alarm went off at 4:25 this morning. I did not want to get up! TJ will be having a lot of days off next week. I hope that goes well. He's been in a very good mood these last 2 days. I'm very glad but curious at the same time. I shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth either I suppose.

What a Day!

It's just amazing around here at work. I wish I could go into more detail, but I can't because people I work with read my blog, and other people I don't work with any more tell people I DO work with and that some how goes straight to my boss and then I end up in her office. I don't need help there for sure. Some how, I have managed to do well in that catagory all by myself with out the help of anyone else, but that hasn't stopped other people from helping me.

Another boring day. I wish they were more productive so I would have more to do. Melanie will be gone until next Wednesday for her birthday.