2/2/06

What a shitty day already, but yet, I am to smile as if it is all great! That is what I will maintain, even though I feel like killing someone and then crying about it. I HATE People Soft, as if most of you didn't know that. I can hear Melissa saying "ya, tell me about it, that's half the reason I left that place". So, I call the support desk to report that on top of the shitty way this data base has been running for 2 day, today 3, that the links are not coming in via email. So, Mike at the support desk deletes my email account and recreates it taking Everything with it. I could just cry. There were important things in my email, plus two pictures of my beautiful daughter that I stare at all day long. The processing time is worse than abomidal (spelling?).

Some one as a joke has taken my water bottle, which is how I am measuring my water intake with the diet pills. So much for that, I have to find another way of keeping myself hydrated just to take my vitamins.

Had the "sex" talk with TJ this morning, which is always thoroughly depressing. And it hasn't change at all. He wants for Valentine's Day..get this...a fucking gun! How romantic is that I ask you? Then, he says, just get me chocolates and you. OK, well, that I can do, you already have me and do nothing with that every single day. So, Ok, I love you enough, where do you want me to purchase this gun from? He says, never mind, just get me chocolates and I'll be happy. I didn't even ask for the one thing I really want, that I wanted for Christmas and didn't get. I'm not even going to set myself up for disappoinment. I'll just use the "toy" he got me and call it good, as if I have any other choice??? Lunch on Valentine's Day at Le Cordon Blue and call it good and be grateful that I got that!

I'm still stuck with People Soft, blank screen, processing until the cows Have come home and are making themselves comfortable on the couch in the staff lounge, and still smiling....:)