Parting in such Sweet Sorrow....

I just was handed to me the nicest letter typed and hand written from our departed Jennifer, and it truly touched me, deeply. What a wonderful person that I hope I get to see at the Base Ball Game come this Saturday evening. I will miss you Jennifer....

I tried for three days to go in and talk with her, just to make sure the air was clear. Maybe I didn't try hard enough, because by the end of the day yesterday, my time had come and gone, and I had to go. It is my fault for not taking care of any issues previously. It would have been the right thing for me to do. I made Jennifer at one point feel uncomfortable and embarrassed because of my rudeness and again I am truly sorry. The good thing is that from this experience, I have learned to watch myself in my delivery towards people, to think outside the box and be more aware of how I effect people in every aspect of my life. For this, I thank her.

I have learned not to put things off thinking and hoping they will just go away and all will be well. That is not the way life works. You only get a first chance to make a good impression and to thy own self be true. Now the opportunity to make it good is gone because I chose to ignore the situation. Even though I thought it didn't bother me at first, it bothered someone else by my actions, and that still should have been addressed before it got too far out of hand. Other people's feelings need to be taken into consideration besides just myself.

I love the chocolate that I received today with the most lovely note that I read to my husband as I was opening it. Almost brought tears to my eyes to think that in some way, I hope she forgives me, and is big enough to look outside the box. I can so learn from this lovely human being, and really truly appreciate the patience she took with me over the course of our relationship. This will impact my brain for the rest of my life. To answer several inquiries in her blog, not to mention the emails that were circulated, I got the message, and I have learned! There is hope, don't ever give up on me!

I have had some major issues going on that my plate is just overflowing. I have gotten a grip on myself now. TJ was in a car accident on last Saturday AGAIN! He has been in pain, his brother has made himself present in our life again after almost 8 years. It's been a wild zoo I tell you. Start week has been insane as if it were a regular term start, not mid-term start. Neither here, nor there, I should not have been rude to more than just one person here. Thank God I work with the best people and they keep hanging in there with me. I am truly blessed to work and have worked with the best people!