Woo Hoo!

Mom is going to be OK, she has had 2 heart attacks thus far, and I feel that she had another one but the Dr's don't. She spent several hours at the hospital yesterday, and the Dr. there gave her medication for verdigo. She had a severly bad case of that because of the pinched nerve in her neck. They gave her Perkisets (woo Hoo) and so she finally got a good night's sleep. She is still going to watch Tatyana Friday so we can do lunch at WCI, and I'm so looking forward to that. She got severly bitched at by everyone for not calling before she went. She should not have driven herself to the hospital but did. I also respected her wishes by not telling anyone, so she really got it. I told her she shouldn't have! She shouldn't be so selfish and self centered when it comes to her health.

On a new note, we are going to McCormack & Schmick tomorrow for lunch! I am so excited about that, I've always wanted to go, and free is good! Free food is better and a good time goes without saying. Lunch is at 11:30 tomorrow for appreciation for Admin week. We got flowers each of us today. Mine were a bouquet of carnations and blue daisies. Karen fixed mine for me, and Aileen did the rest. I put them in the vase incorrectly and about drove Karen wild, but they both took care of it and they look so lovely. Aileen and Karen both have a nack for flower arrangements. Darlene was the one who gave the wonderful gift of flowers with a lovely card that reads:

I truely appreciate your smiles, spontaneous humor and greetings. You two run a very vital floor! Thanks Darlene (sweet isn't it?)

TJ let me read part of my book to him last night. I was so surprised that he let me, and he listened intently. He even practiced some of it's advice on me, which was to break the conflict when something is bothering one of us, to make a funny statement, and it worked! That gave me GREAT joy that he was open minded to this and even partook in it! When it's good, it's Really good, and when it's not, we need to work on that a bit more. He now knows how I feel about it and that I am not going any where ever, divorce was NEVER an option and things have not changed. We WILL make this work and it WILL be good, and get better each day. I am determined for that to happen. 16 years and still going! It's hard to live compatibly with anyone for that length of time, and to still have similar interests, be compatible and still love each other is not easy in today's day and age. Good things don't come easy, and marriage is no exception. It takes a lot of hard work but is well worth the effort. I am nearing the end of the book and then I'm thinking I will pick up where I left off on the other book that TJ got for me to read.

TJ is getting hours all this week and I'm so happy about that, so is he. Makes for more money we can spend. We might be getting some more money back on our brake job, which will help, we will in turn put it into the Cougar and get a tune up on it. It needs it badly.

Melissa's pictures were so darling, I love looking at her photographs. I can feel her happiness and energy through them. If you are reading this Melissa, you need to let us know what is up with Darby moving out and what you plan to do about this in the future since it is coming up....You don't plan to move in with your parents new farm do you?

Sherry was kind enough to watch Tatyana all this week for us, except for Friday. It's only a couple of hours and Taty really misses her grandma. It's hard for Sherry to take her to school with the twins, but she manages! Thank God for her.

I'm debating whether or not to take the damn dog for a walk today so that I will sleep well tonight. I did 10 blocks today at lunch and that makes me feel good. God Bless my cousin Tami who told me she could tell I'd lost weight and that is inspiring me a lot. Inspiration is a good thing!

The Weekend

I did nothing! On Saturday, Tatyana and I went to Canby to see my cousin who I have not seen in almost a year. She was pregnant when I saw her last. They have a beautiful new home and it was good to see her, Cody and the new little one, Tiana. We got some pictures together, and I burned our family pictures from the disk to a CD all by myself! I was so proud of me! So, the rest of the weekend, I rested. I should have cleaned, but I chose not to this time. I will pay for it though, I'll have to get it done. TJ's birthday is this Friday and I hope this one he will be happy with. I'm concerned about his happiness and I finally told him that last night. I started Saturday, but needed the right time to open the can of worms if you will. This morning, I'm to a part in my book about relationships and it really concerns me even more.

Mom just called me and she is having some bad trouble with her heart at least. I'm very worried about her, she had trouble this morning and was not calling me because she didn't want to burden me! I'm having her call the Dr. this morning and we'll figure something out, hopefully before it's too late. She sweated, was dizzy laying down, she thinks she has a pinched nerve in her neck, it's causing unbelievable pain down her right arm, and she's nautious. She is supposed to call me back. She even went to Pastor and told him she can't do the church any more, meaning she can't take down the church after services it's just too much for her. I'm glad she did that. Then to make matters worse, Tony is an asshole to her and bitching because he has to do the dishes. I'm going to figure out a way to go help her out, and she has foot surgery on May 11th, if she lives that long. I'm feeling something else is drastically wrong. I hope she is going to be OK, I'd hate to lose her after just losing dad.

It's Friday!

I'm so glad it's Friday. I'm sorry about Christina's accident, that sucks! Hopefully she will get some rest this weekend, even though she has to work. I would work for you, but I can't test!

We went to Tatyana's open house at her school last night and had a cheeseburger with Cheetos and a can of Pepsi. Then, we viewed all the things these kids have done in the school (it's a private school). Had a grand time but lots of people started coming in, so we left. I was very tired and rested when we got home, gave her a bath and went to bed. While we were at the school, one of Tatyana's friend's Kimmie and her big sister who both go there were going to get some food. Her dad is always with them because their mom works graveyard. It is an interesting situation, anyways, so when they went to buy this cheeseburger meal for $4.00, TJ overheard the dad telling them that they would have to share a cheeseburger meal for the both of them (assuming he had not planned to eat) and TJ made it look like Tatyana bought them a dinner so they didn't have to share. He asked me if that was ok and I was very ok with it. He made sure that the dad didn't know what he had done for pride reasons and I thought that was very unselfish of him. We were invited over to their house a few weekends ago for a BBQ and had a grand time. Kimmie is very shy though and Tatyana likes her but Sydney is her buddy, the one she likes best. We are not sure now if she will continue this school next year. I'd like her to but the tuition is large. He asked me if I was surprised and really I wasn't because it was the right thing to do and we can, and they should not have to share like that. I'm surprised they can afford school for 2 kids.

I didn't tell him about going to Canby, and I won't unless I have to. I'm looking forward to it. I'm sure Tatyana will have a great time too. I miss her, it's been quite a while since I last saw her. Sherry got the magnet done from our pictures. They are all so cute! I think she is very photogenic. She was the most beautiful baby and has only grown to be more beautiful each day.

I have made reservations for lunch for him and I at Western Culinary Institute on April 29th for his birthday. I can hardly wait to see what goodies they will be serving us that day.

Oh ya, then the Damn Dog thing...We are driving home from the school last night and he says, "you didn't ask about the dog"...I said "I think I made myself plain and clear last night about how I stand about the dog and I won't ask." He told me he had called on the floor and found it to be cheaper to call someone in the Nickel Ads to fix the couple of squares rather than replace the whole floor. We'll see what happens with that. Mean while, I still hate the dog and don't want to be around her, have her touch me or even look at me. It causes me great anger, so I stay away from her, and hope he will take care of her like walk her and what not, because I don't want anything to do with her until I don't look at the floor chewed to shit! It might be a long time, not my fault.

Thursday

Wish it were the weekend already. Soon enough it will be here. I think it's time to go out of town for a vacation. Need a change of scenery and fresh air. Something new to look at for a while. Have plans for TJ's birthday already. I'm looking forward to that for sure. I definately need a vacation day to just do nothing.

We are going to Canby this weekend to see my cousin and her little cuttie who I have not seen before. Haven't told TJ yet because I don't want to hear his shit about it, so I will try to get away from saying anything about it so there is no confrontation about something I plan to do regardless of his opinion. I'm sure Tatyana will have a grand time, and I am quite looking forward to it as well. I want to tell her about it, but I'll wait until Saturday when we are on our way there.

Last weekend I lost an entire load of clothes to the dryer at the laundry mat. Pissed me off something fierce and we had to go to the store and buy Taty new clothes. She enjoyed that, but we spent $100 in a short time. That isn't that hard to do when you go shopping for clothes though. I am really going to try to relax on Saturday to give myself a break.

Still nothing done with the dog on his behalf. That didn't surprise me. I wonder if he will do anything about it or just listen to me bitch about it for eternity.

We got the movie The Parents to watch so we can watch part 2 and it will make more sense to me. Taty picked out popcorn for the snack to watch the movie with, instead of candy because she knows I don't like candy. I thought that was sweet.

Who is This?

I don't understand why I need to go to this page to put pictures in. Too confusing to me. Who is this Daytripper person? What a trip!

The Damn Dog!

Do I always have to have a title? Well, On Monday night, I came home to the dog having chewed a huge hole in the kitchen floor, large enough that at least 6 squares need to be replaced. Thing is that the land lady doesn't know we have a dog, first Ugly thing. Second is that she told us after moving in and being able to have pets that we could not any longer. Third Ugly is that the owner of the property has had an ugly experience with other tenants and decided if we had a dog, it could not be a Pit or Rot, third strike! So, while I was beating the dog with the newspaper for what she had done, my watch flies off and lands on the floor of course and breaks! Strangely enough, I was controlled and didn't get angry until the next morning, then it all hit me! What are we going to do here in this situation? A pet deposit is $300, which of course we have not paid because she doesn't know we have a dog, not to mention a Pit Bull. Annie knew what she had done was wrong, but now I have animosity towards the dog again. I was over it from when she pissed on our bed, and even got over it when she chewed boxes that belonged to my dad, chewed the coffee table and has gone into Taty's room on more than one occasion to find miscellaneous things to chew up and shred. Shred is what she did to the kitchen floor's tiling or covering, it's like thick paper and she strewn it about the house as well. So, I asked TJ to take care of this situation, or I will take the dog for a free long ride, that is my contribution to what she has done. He was NOT happy with my decision or words, but I didn't expect him to and worse than that, I didn't care. Now, she has to be in the stupid kennel while we leave, because I can't trust her. So, this morning's discussion is that something needs to be done with her, she has to go for a walk or to the park today, because I don't want to be around her at all. Also, her cage needs to be replaced and she needs to be fixed because I do NOT ever want to go through another damn dog being in heat living in my home. Hopefully he acts on this soon.

The weather is so nice outside for today and the next couple and that is like a breath of fresh air. I've still been walking each day the last half hour of my lunch and feeling good about that. I think I should empliment doing some push ups too, but haven't gotten that far.

We are watching a new show on SciFi channel and it's part two is on tonight. It is very interesting and I think it's title in Revelation. It's a 6 part series, but "The Lost" is on tonight at the same time, however, if it is a rerun then we won't be watching it. I'm curious to read tomorrow who is booted off American Idol tonight, so Melissa, make sure you put updates in. I can almost always count on that lately, so don't change now! LOL!

We got the family portraits done, but I can't figure out how to post them, but if Kelly can figure it out (with Melissa's help) then I can! I gave the disk to Sherry and the magnet set for her to play with, and then I'll get it back so I can figure out how to post.

Cino de Mayo is coming soon and we are going this year. Then Rose Festival and the State Fair, summer is upon us and I'm looking forward to it. I have a new sense of adventure and I plan to see if I will use it this summer to do new things out of my norm. The book is nearing the end, taking quite a long time, but it's well worth it. The trick now is going to be using it and making it work for me. After this one, I'm going to dip into the other one I started a Dean Koontz book.

I bought 2 new colors for my hair, and the one I'm going to try next is called Mahagony, not sure if I spelled it right or not, but I'm going to give this one a try and see what becomes of it. Should prove to be interesting, as some of them already have been. Until next time....

It's Monday...

What a great weekend! I got to spend some time alone, which is always a good thing. Took the Bloody dog for a walk. Tatyana had a good time at Johnny's. TJ has hours this week, which is always a good thing. A not so good thing, I did the clothes at the laundry mat as I always do every weekend and the damn things melted! So, it seems that Taty didn't clean out her pockets and it ruined what was in that load, it literally melted the clothes! That sucked needless to say, and TJ took us shopping for new clothes. I lost a bra which did not get replaced, but she got some new goodies. We went to GoodWill while it was pouring down hale. Then Target, spent $100 all the way around. Well, that was it. I baked oatmeal cookies and thought of Melissa who I cannot share these with. Melanie is out sick today and it's start day. What a crazy damn day and long! I'm cooking pork chops with Chicken and Mushroom Rice with a salad for dinner, and I am already tired! So, until tomorrow and thank God for my bed tonight! Until tomorrow!

Another Glorious Day...

Actually, no Melissa, he isn't but it sure seemed that way at first. I hate to find myself coming to his aid or defense again, but I guess I just do that. I think that together, we were just having a moment. Sometimes, Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way, but I can feel things heating up before they actually do. I shouldn't do that, because then I set myself up to fulfill these thoughts of confrontation. I must change this, and obviouslyI know about it, so it should be easy to change...one would think?!

On a different note, I have been reading this book, and enpowerment book, and it is enpowering me. I am learning to change my inner self, and I will hopefully change this with my partner in life as well. Not all things mind you, but some things. We have an evening planned alone on Friday night, which is tomorrow and I plan to utilize it. I want to sit and talk about us. We have some goals coming up that I want to discuss. I asked him last night what his thoughts were about spending a night alone with me, in other words, not having Tatyana right there with us. He was explaining to me his views on this. I understand where he has come up with these thoughts, but I plan to change his mind. I have created this, and I will change this too. He wasn't looking forward spending this quality time alone with me, but I talked about it with him, and he is now. I am looking forward to it. Tatyana is spending the night at her boyfriend's house, and then on Saturday morning, we will have breakfast without the little one. I plan to go back to the house and clean out her room. Hopefully the Damn Dog will be out of heat, and so I also plan to take her for a walk around the neighborhood regardless of her situation. I'm looking forward to the break and some time to myself and spent with my husband. It's over due and I plan to utilize it to the best of my ability. I also need to call Lisa this weekend, without distraction from the little one.

Yesterday was picture day, so I plan to have Christina help me post the pictures of us. Kind of makes me sad, since the last ones were for my Dad, who will not be able to enjoy this time around. That's ok, from his view up above he probably sees more than I care to!

Got to take Tatyana to school yesterday and pick her up, she was quite excited about that, because Mom doesn't usually get to do that at all. I spoke to Lynn who will be escorting Tatyana to class each day of class once mom has her surgery. Sherry watches the twins and just doesn't have enough arms around to take them out of the car seat and escort Taty to class. Lynn is totally down with it and that really helps a lot.

I really love this book I am reading, second part to Unlimited Power, it's Release the Giant Within. Learned a lot, and the good thing is that I own this book! I will be reading this one again and again until I can get it down! That is my goal!

Here it is...

Well, first entry and it's mine! How cool is that?! Well, what a hell of a day. It all was set in stone before 7:30 this morning! Even though life is throwing things my way, I refuse to be upset by them. It is still a wonderful day, even though it's raining outside and my ass is a bit larger than it was when I woke up this morning. My husband vomited ugly words all over me screaming in my ear on the max before I even departed to my stop. Then, minutes later calls me up to tell me that Def Leppard has changed their tour date to June 1st as if nothing had been said! I'm amazed at how good he felt after threatening me again that if he left, Tatyana would go with him, and they just maybe they would be there after I was finished doing what ever I wanted to. Then, I get to work to have that "day" start today and messy it was. That was ever so much fun to clean up! And it has only gotten better from there! I can hardly wait to see what tonight will bring, I'm sure nothing, unless I provoke it. I don't feel like it, so maybe there is hope for the future, immediate future. I was bad, and I admit it, but have not apologized for it yet. I'm not so sure I will. I have not decided yet whether I will or not, since the "threat" has reappeared again. I wonder what it would be like being single. Then, again, I can't imagine life without them, so I guess I won't know....