Friday!

I guess I did marry a control freak. At the time I needed it. Some times, I still do to keep me under wraps. Other wise, I do stupid things with out thinking about them before I do them. I live with it. It's all good. Most of the time it doesn't bother me, and not nearly as much as people around me get bothered by it.

Auntie is still in the hospital not awake yet. They still have the plug down her throat to keep her breathing. They did an EKG and Kat Scan on her yesterday and are waiting for results from all the tests. Seems she might now also have brain damage but they don't know to what extent. That makes me sad, and tonight I am going over to see her after work. Bruce is picking me up on 122nd and Burnside and depending on how she is doing will predict whether or not we go have dinner together and a drink, including Uncle Pete if he wants to come along. Then Bruce will take me home. I have to tape Wrestling tonight because TJ got called into work early to work a 12 hour shift and was in such a hurry he forgot to set it. I don't mind that at all. Providing I'm home by then! He has laid back off me with it, but only because I'm not teasing him any more. Bruce made a comment about picking me up as long as my insanely jealous husband doesn't rampage on him. I laughed and said yes, I married a control freak and after 17 years I'm just now realizing it! So, I have to take my books home tonight with me and I will start doing my home work to get ahead so by Monday I will feel like I know something and feel comfortable. That is important to me. I have to keep caught up in this class. I did find out that if I fail the certification test the first time around, because it is $280, that I have 12 calendar months to take it again at no cost. I learned that Rod failed it his first time and he is the instructor of the classes!

I will have Toni two nights a week and Carlos the other 2 nights. I have to be at class at 6:00 Monday to waive all the BS that doesn't pertain to me and then class will begin. It gets out between 9:30 and 10 p.m. I might be tired for a long time, but I have to do this. I want more money and the only way I will get it is by doing this.

Next Friday I have off for my birthday. I don't want to go to the coast because it's going to be too late before we could get going on Thursday to spend the night. He tells me Taty will be sad, but too bad. It's my birthday not hers. We'll have to do something else. I don't know what yet. I want to go shopping for clothes. She is going to be staying out of class that day to spend with me. I hope it goes well. I wanted to go to the Western Culinary for lunch and/or Ringside for dinner, but we can only do one or the other and not both. Not sure I want to take Taty to gourmet or not. Maybe we could go to the Melting Pot instead, always wanted to try Fondue'. I've heard it's good, but not necessarily a place for kids either. I don't know what I want to do besides just shop, relax and eat good food without too much drama from my daughter who is ALL about her.

We got new phones last night. Now we are Cingular customers not Qwest. I love my new phone and am glad to be rid of their "service" if you will. They are sure taking their sweet ass old time about changing it all over. I now have video and photo abilities with this new phone! It is way cool!

I'm looking forward to tonight! Today, for lunch when ever Laurel gets here which is supposed to be around 12 or 1, I brought soup for Teresa and myself to share. It's Safeway Select 3 Mushroom soup! Sounds nummy! I just wish we would be able to eat together, because Melanie isn't here.

Today

Auntie is still the same. Mom said it is just pitiful to look at her. She has tubes running all over her. She is not aware of anything going on. It is very sad.

I have Friday night all to myself. I told TJ I was going to go out. He had a hissy fit. Married women do not do that, I am to only go out with him. So, I told him that I would go out with him some time. He works swing shift on Friday night. Like I ever or have ever gone out by myself to a bar since I've been with him. I don't know what he is thinking but it's wrong. It wouldn't matter anyway. I'm not his child, I'm his wife. He said that didn't matter. I don't belong in a bar without him, it's not the place for a married woman he says. I called my cousin Bruce to see if he wanted to go out and have a drink together. He has already insinuated things between him and I and I was very repulsed by his insinuations. I told Bruce about it too, and he was as grossed out and irritated by it as I was. I don't know why he is so insecure all of a sudden. Probably because he isn't taking care of his hubandly duties which isn't my fault. His choice, it has nothing to do with medications as he blames it on.

I will be glad when it is Friday. Melanie doesn't work tomorrow so it's only me by myself. Laurel isn't planning on being here until later either. That will suck.

Tuesday

Well, my aunt is back in the hospital. She has had a heart attack and not doing well. She is ICU again. Not a good thing at all. She has a tube down her throat and is having it breath for her.

So much for vacation

Lisa emailed me back saying we will have to reschedule our vacation planned for this weekend. That sucks. It won't be until next year then. She lives in Redmond and I have to go over Mt Hood to get there. The pass won't stay clear for much longer. TJ won't let me drive in those kind of conditions. I think he is happy we will be home with him.

I got my books from Miranda after not being able to get a hold of her all weekend. She brought them to me this morning. I have I think everything I need for class. Now I'm starting to get excited about it. It might take me a while to get in the swing of it once it starts. This Friday, Melanie is taking off and going to the beach, so I'll be closing and then have the weekend to myself I guess.

Taty got invited to a birthday party that I already accepted the invitation to. Then, find out that on the same day, there is an invitation to Donna's dad's celebration of life. Go figure! I wanted to go!

Tomorrow the big wigs will be here. How exciting is that?! I can hardly wait!

It's 78 in the lobby. Can't find a comfortable medium to save anyone's soul! It's either freeze to death or sweat to death. Why can't it be medium??

Good Things and Not so Good Things~

Well, Donna's dad passed away last night at 10:00 p.m. She is very upset and I can't blame her one bit. It hurt like hell when my dad died I remember like it was yesterday. Even though you know they are going to die, it doesn't make it any easier or less painful. The good thing is he is with God and he will no longer hurt. My prayers are with her and she will be keeping us posted.

The mortgage broker guy came over last night. The house thing is going to work out. He will be calling today with final numbers and now all we need to do is place a bid and go from there.

My aunt is doing better Praise God!!! She is eating food, walking and talking in the present tense. I don't know when she will be coming home, but some things will definitely be changing. I brushed her hair for her and put some sauve on her nose because it was so dry from blowing it. Her feet are hurting, but there is nothing they can do for that. She has one of those diseases that cause her feet to hurt all the time. I think her kidneys are going to recover and I don't think she will have any brain damage from it. Lots to pray for today for sure!

Sorry about the misinformation about Kelly. I got confused as to who is where. I'm glad that Sireina is liking being a Boss. She would make a Great boss and if I had to have another one, I would choose her!

Well~

I've started studying my book today for MIBC. Exciting, I wish I had all of my books. I got an email back from Miranda and she will bring my books Thursday or Friday at the latest. That will give me time to get some studying done this weekend. I'm not sure if I'll go to church this weekend or not. I think I should. It would certainly help my soul. It's not like if I go to church God will be good to me and let things go smoothly, but it certainly couldn't hurt!

Laurel has gone home early today. She is feeling shitty with cramps. I hate it when that happens. I'm having a good day so far.

My Aunt is in the hospital. I will be going to see her tonight with Tatyana. Still in ICU though. I hope she recovers. She was so low on her blood pressure, they are thinking she might end up with brain damage. Meanwhile, I will be speaking with my mom about talking smack about her. I do not want to hear it any more. It hurts me as it should hurt her. Some how, she has a lot of pinned up anger towards the situation my aunt is in. She blames it all on drug usage over the years. That is not the facts, rather her opinion.

Tomorrow is Dotty's last day and then she will be joining the Apollo team with Jennifer and Shirley and Kelly. I will miss Dotty, but she won't miss being here. She doesn't fit in in FA, so she has found other employment that pays a hell of a lot more than we do. Imagine that???

I miss Christina. She hasn't anything me since Heather's birthday. Tatyana loved the clothes that Genny finally gave to her. She tells me "mom, these stink like smoke". I laughed and said that's because they were at Genny's house for a week. So, we washed them.

Sherry emailed me a link to a free stack washer and dryer on craigslist but the lady hasn't called back yet. I am guessing by this time, it's gone. Free goes quickly from craigslist. Would have been nice not having to load everything up every weekend, haul it out, then into the mat, then out to the van, then back to the house. TJ doesn't ever do the laundry. But he does other things, so it's all good. Comes out in the wash, I made a funny!

The guy "the bank" who we are meeting on Wednesday night that we would have to have traveled all the way back to Vancouver to meet with is coming to our House to meet with us~!!! I'm so excited, no traffic, the comfortable living room. I just want to find something for Taty to do so that she doesn't interrupt us. Last time was frustrating for me. TJ is like we need to include her, I'm like, in almost everything BUT this! This is a financial decision and she plays no part in it and I do NOT want to me interupted multiple times like before. We think we have found the house we want as long as someone else doesn't come along and buy it from underneath us while we are getting this set up! If it is the house to be, then it will still be there come Wednesday night. I'm going to check on another realtor tonight who is retired and not so damn pushy and see if this will work better.

TJ works swing tonight so I'm cooking Tuna and noodles with mixed veggies and the rest of the watermellon and then we're off and running. I hope I have time to get my walk in.

Monday, 9/11

Weird watching it again. I remember what I was doing. Went to church with Teresa. Fabulous service. Brought tears to my eyes. Had a wonderful time after church too. Had a block party with hot dogs, shaved ice, cotton candy, soda, popcorn and lots of good fun. Taty and Robert had a blast. I went to visit with my Aunt afterwards. She wasn't being conscious, like she couldn't hold a conversation, and would drift out, her eyes closed having convulsions. It was weird. They took her to the hospital this morning. Her kidneys are failing so she will be in the hospital for a while. Reminds me of before my grandma died, she did the same thing. Just out there, look right at you but right through you and there was nobody home. Same thing. I hope she will be alright. Can't live with out your kidneys for sure.

My mom was quite pissy with me on the phone last night, because my Uncle feels she should come over and spend some time with her. Mom thinks otherwise. I think now she understands how serious this is. Not just drugs catching up to her over time, but really something wrong.

Glad Jen is over her issues with the bad mood. Sounds definitely hormonal for sure. Glad Will is home too.

How it all turned out

Well, it turned out great! We had a slight discussion in the car about how he thought I was over reacting. I told him that having a panic attack about how much is left in the bank shouldn't be a concern since we are going to see if we can buy a house. So, it ended up that we met Stephanie and I really enjoyed her. She explained everything, we got some print outs of a few houses that were between $185 and $200 that are within our budget and signed some papers to get this thing going on, and now we need to hook up with a real estate agent to see inside of the houses we were given to look at. Maybe we'll be able to do this, who knows?

Jen, your blog is funny!