I don't have anything nice or good to say right now, until it's all over. That's what I have to say

Tuesday

I'm tired today. The sun is gone outside and maybe that is why. Today my hair looks much better than yesterday so let us hope that it dictates I'm going to have a good hair day all the way around.

To answer Teresa's question, yes, I do have 3 tickets for us all, and we will be going to the game. Today is Donna's birthday, and tomorrow I get to have lunch with her. I've missed her while she's been out frollicing around having fun. I'm glad she has got some time to herself and with her hubby. She deserves it. I'm going to call and sing to her here in a little bit.

TJ has my birthday off and wants me to take it off. I'd rather work, I got a lot of fun last year and was rather looking forward to more this year. Doesn't look as though that is going to happen though. I don't want to hurt his feelings, and the day is already reserved off, so I guess I will be taking it off. I was thinking lunch at Western Culinary, dinner at either Road House or Olive Garden, and then clothes shopping. I don't really care, it's on a Thursday, we can't go out of town or anything, so whatever happens, that's fine with me.

Thank God People Soft is working in a "normal" fashion today. I couldn't take a 4th day of that happening. It took an act of God to get them to fix the damn thing. They kept making excuses for what it was, then off to this guy and then to that guy! What a mess, and very draining I might add. Today will be better I am determined!

It sure is nice to see Teresa so happy. We had a nice walk and lunch yesterday. I missed my walk with Christina, but hopefully today will allow that instead. I haven't spent any quality time with Teresa in a couple of months and it was over due. I'm feeling much better now, a dose of Teresa and ones blues should be cured!

I keep wondering about Melissa though? Is she moving out? Already given notice, where will she be residing now? What about Darbie and Ben? No new posts in her blog for quite a while now. I hope all is well and if you are reading this Melissa, I miss you and think of you often.

Yesterday Taty was a brat at grandma's house. Seems she thinks she can still jump on grandma's belly for the fun of it. Well, it' hurts mom now, as it probably did before but Taty is getting too old and big to be doing that. She thinks it's a game and continued to do it even after she was asked to stop. Then, she hit grandma in the boobs thinking it was funny as well. She got in trouble needless to say by Dad and Mom and that will be the end of that. I told her that she could cause cancer to grandma by doing that, and not only that, it hurts! When someone says don't do that any more, you stop doing it. I think she has the idea now. She is still a great kid and I'm glad we have her, couldn't imagine life without her!

Monday

Wish I could say the weekend was wonderful, it was romantic, had a great time, enjoyed the one I'm with, but I can't. I enjoyed reading everyone else's blogs who did have a great time though. I guess I'm stuck with that. Some how, that just isn't enough though.

Went to Izzy's for Pizza Saturday night, and it was quite warm out to say the least. We have to go in his car, because, well, it's HIS car. We have to roll down the windows because the AC isn't charged, but the Van has AC. So, our hair is all blown about, and I fix that, to walk into the establishment to find they have no AC! So, we want to leave, but no. Taty wants pizza. So, we go in, sweat immediately starts forming on my lip, trickling down my scalp like it does when one is REALLY warm, and he sits across the table from me and informs me that "it's not THAT hot". So, because of his thermostat in his body and because he says so, I'm not supposed to sweat?! Because the AC bothers his contacts is why we can't just be comfortable for the short trip to Izzy's? Lovely weekend, and that was on Saturday! It got progressively worse. It started on Friday when I woke him up for him to walk by me and say "do you know that you have a zit on your face?" I WON'T tell you what I felt like saying back to him, but I kept my mouth shut, and kept my cool and walked out of the room. When Friday night came around, and earlier that morning I had told him that I didn't like him, he obviously had forgotten by Friday night, and questioned my "attitude" He justified that my saying well, i was just teasing, and then saying, well, I thought maybe you didn't know and I was just telling you so you did know. I put a stop to that, but as I said, the tension only grew worse. I'm still not liking him much today. Taty is with us at every waking moment, so I must keep my P's and Q's to myself or open a much bigger can or worms that what is already open. My stress level and unhappiness level is at its maximum capacity right now. I still have a cold, which we went to 2 different stores last night to get me something, while they sat in the heat ( not if we would have taken the Van!) all to have the pharmacies closed, so they couldn't help me. Too bad our police force don't realize that it's the fucking mexicans importing meth to our country by the boat loads and doesn't have nearly as much to do with people who are sick and need some medicine to get well with. I guess that is a whole different story. It takes quite a lot of Sudafed to be separated in the bathtub to make a VERY small amount of meth.

I still don't have any Contact for my cold, but plan to today after Melanie gets here at 11:00. Today is Christina's first day at her new schedule. It's 83 in the lobby as of now, was 86 when I first got here. This building sucks for AC, I hope the heat will do better in the winter. I'm about out of the notion for heat thanks to my husband who won't even open the back door to let cool air in, won't take the vehicle with AC because it isn't his, and this building that can't keep up to a comfortable standard. I can't take clothes off, or wear any less without making anyone sick! The constant weather changes aren't helping me any either, between the building and our weather here in general. I was so uncomfortable last night with a snotty nose, way too hot in our apartment and trying to get comfortable in general. I finally got up and went to the couch after going to the bathroom because it was so hot, he was snoring, and i'm sick to death of watching or listening to the Military channel to sleep. I might just kill him one night, since that's usually what's on, something to do with war, death, distruction, killing. He said to me the other night, "if my gun accidentally went off and killed me, you wouldn't even care, would you?". I said nothing. I'm trying to listen in the back of my head what my grandma always said, if you can't say something nice, then don't say it at all.

I wonder what it would be like to have control over my home, my body and my choices to make? The choice to watch what I want to, to listen to what I want to on TV, the choice to spend ANY money and not feel like I'm being crusified for it? To go visit someone without using "his" time and get the guilty complex for it, because I'm doing something I want to on "his" time? Go visit friends together as a couple like we used to, go out together like we used to, be any kind of intimate like we used to, like for example Just cuddle? A hug that takes longer than 4 seconds and then pull away? I wonder...........

Saturday

The Call Center doesn't even know we are here! Can you believe it?! What a waste of time, how rude! And they were too! This has been a wonderful day, getting to know Stephanie, one of her appointments showed up, and Kendall passed the Cpat! Not a wasted day that a current student can continue attending classes because we can't locate his high school transcripts. Also, that Stephanie has someone show for an appointment, not a bad day. The communication needs to improve from Corporate but we aren't the only ones more than likely. Made a few extra bucks today, so it's all good.

Nice day out, got in without the alarm going crazy, had some iced tea and I'm good to go! Taty spent the night at Heather's and today is Heather's birthday. Happy Birthday Heather! Went to the circus last night. Circus Chimera it's called and what a lovely, wonderful show! 2 hours and packed full of fun. Heather's first circus and she loved it! Had a great time, loved the clowns and acrobats too. $40 for us all, but well worth it! It seemed to be lame at first before it started, but soon was very alive.

I wanted to get my hair cut today, but Theresa is out until Wednesday, go figure! I might need to cut it myself then.

Here I sit

The office is way cooler than it was, that is the blessing. 90 degrees in an office with no fan, no air, no circulation whatsoever is just wrong! That probably didn't help my cold situation as Melissa stated earlier. It now has Contact to treat it, and it seems to be helping, but I'm still stuffy and snotty. Soon this shall pass I hope!

People Soft is down and that sucks, I can't do a damn thing, so here I sit. Polytics at work I could discuss, but it's gossip and is that really the right thing to discuss? So, I won't. It has broken my heart and that's all I will say. I hope it goes away soon.

I get to take Donna to lunch next Thursday for her birthday and that makes me happy. Friday is Amber's baby shower in the back room and today I'm going shopping for the baby girl. TJ is going shopping today for Heather's present because her birthday is this Saturday and tonight she will be spending the night, so that Friday night Taty will stay there so I can work Saturday and Taty will be able to attend the swim party.

I missed Christina while she was out. I look forward to her return. Have had words with the man all morning, which doesn't do my soul a world of good. I wonder some times, and then I stop. I question sometimes, and then I quit. Why me? Some things are not negotiable, and this one is not. So, why continue to discuss it, or argue about it when it isn't going to do any good? I wonder, and then it continues anyway. The ability to agree to disagree with someone is truly an art. It isn't easy, but then again spending 16 years with the same person isn't easy either. Such is life at this point.

Peter Jennings

So sad to hear about him, he died of the same thing my dad did, and just about as quickly. I have a cold, sucks! It's 83 in the office!

Saturday work

Well, it seems that we will be changing our process here and Christina's schedule as well. I don't have to work this weekend, but next Saturday I do for 4 hours. Our live transfer calls require someone to be here for 4 hours every Saturday for a while. Laurel is pulling this Saturday and I have the next one being Melanie is out until Tuesday. Such sadness, as Heather's swim party is that Saturday. I will have to make arrangements for her to be taken there because TJ works every Saturday. Now I have the option of leaving early or taking OT. Not sure what I will do, depends on if TJ works or not. It's still not broadcast to everyone yet, but will be today.

I hope time flies while Melanie is out. It's nearing lunch time. I'm hungry because I stopped eating when I was full this morning. Maybe a good idea or not? The heat wasn't so bad last night, might be worse tonight, we'll see. TJ and Taty are going bowling today. I'm still going to have a free weekend this Saturday and part of Sunday, Yeah!

I don't want to think of a title!

So, it's Wednesday. As if....Melanie won't be here tomorrow, Friday or Monday. My lunches will suck to put it politely unless Laurel has Rosie or Donna do the phones. I hope these days go by quickly! Tomorrow is Melanie's birthday and we've gotten her a card all signed and a gift card for clothes, she will love it!

Swim lessons tonight, bath night, bed time! Dinner at Heidi's, that I'm looking forward to. Glad the day is almost over with.

days later

It's past Monday which makes it Tuesday today. I'm glad, things are finally slowing down a bit. It's been hectic at work these last 2 weeks. I don't mind since I like work and keeping busy. Taty is going to stay with Heather this Saturday night and they are going to the zoo which she is very excited about. I am looking quite forward to the break myself. I will finally get to the Dr and have my blood work done as it was supposed to be 2 weeks ago. Life hasn't been friendly with time, or I run out of energy or both! Sunday morning I will get up, get the laundry together and go to the hospital and get it done and out of the way. I have to fast is the problem! I can do it, I have to, it's over due. I got so much cleaning done this weekend, still not mopped, but I should have time to get it done this Sunday with not too much trouble, being that Tatyana won't be there and maybe get the lawn mowed in the back. Then, I can sit in the sun for a while, or go to auntie's and go swimming.