6/22/05
I'm bored again! I hate being bored, but I think I stated that before. I want some excitement in my life. I wish I could tell him that. I'm supposed to have sympathy for him. I do, but it doesn't stop the craving, urning, wanting, needs, desires and boredom. If I just keep my mouth shut, and be content, then things are just fine, peacy keen, hunky dory! Is that how one should live life? To please someone else, but not be pleased in return? To stay because of the cuttest little girl Ever?
Don't get me wrong, he is a wonderful man. I get along with him on most things, he's a good roommate, good provider, good father, a great best friend. Isn't marriage supposed to be more than that? Some marriages aren't that way, but I didn't want mine to be that way. I have female friends for that! I have considered doing them too! Just playin' but seriously folks, why me? I have a long life ahead of me to be so confined to just a comfortable roommate. I get a kiss hello, good bye, good night, 2 out of 3 entaile tongue. I can't give a lengthy body hug, and I have to hug around the waste because of nerve damage. We don't Ever hold each other, he's not into that, or maybe like everything else it hurts him. I get to see a counselor tomorrow at the YWCA. I'm looking forward to it. I wanted to walk there today to find the place, but I wore the wrong shoes and couldn't because my feet hurt. Hopefully she can shed some light on the subject. I'm tired of getting attitude because I joke around in a sexual manner. Life is too short, isn't it?
Don't get me wrong, he is a wonderful man. I get along with him on most things, he's a good roommate, good provider, good father, a great best friend. Isn't marriage supposed to be more than that? Some marriages aren't that way, but I didn't want mine to be that way. I have female friends for that! I have considered doing them too! Just playin' but seriously folks, why me? I have a long life ahead of me to be so confined to just a comfortable roommate. I get a kiss hello, good bye, good night, 2 out of 3 entaile tongue. I can't give a lengthy body hug, and I have to hug around the waste because of nerve damage. We don't Ever hold each other, he's not into that, or maybe like everything else it hurts him. I get to see a counselor tomorrow at the YWCA. I'm looking forward to it. I wanted to walk there today to find the place, but I wore the wrong shoes and couldn't because my feet hurt. Hopefully she can shed some light on the subject. I'm tired of getting attitude because I joke around in a sexual manner. Life is too short, isn't it?
posted by Tanya @ 2:42 PM
1 Comments:
At 4:20 PM,
The one and only Tree said…
Life is too short...you have to be happy. I am glad you have decided to go to counseling again. I went to a counselor at the YWCA a few years ago (when Dusty and I were still together) so hopefully it will help you too.
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