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Haven't seen or talked with Andrew, not a bad thing, not a good thing, just kind of relief. Not having such a good day today, but I am SURE it will get better. I am preparing to go to the beach tomorrow right after work, and just started. That sucks! Only one plug to my name, and have to wait for Melanie to get here so I can run to the store and then go to the bathroom. Cramps will be heavy tomorrow but I WILL have a good time with the girls (taty and heather) and we will build sand castles and play in the water on the beach. The weather looks like it will be quite kind to us while we are there and I am relying on that to happen. I hope we get the same motel room we had last time, it was VERY comfortable and will accommodate all of us; has a hair dryer in the room built in. I can hardly wait to visit Pig 'N Pancake, ride on the carrousel, watch them eat samples of taffy, watch them on the train ride and enjoy Seaside at its fullest. I love the $20 or less store there and we will visit it as well. It will be a wonderful trip full of memories for the little cutties!

Taty had her first swim lesson last night. She was very nervous and scared but she muttled through it and did very well. I told her I was very proud of her and pleased. She peed three times though in a half an hour! She must have been nervous, plus the water is VERY warm, and they said warm water does that sort of thing to a bladder. They were right! She liked her teacher, the only thing is she needs to work on extending her legs out to kick, she bends them and tries to kick, doesn't work so well in the water. Wednesday is the next lesson, but since we will be leaving for the beach, she will miss it. I hope by the end of this she will be more comfortable with the water, will make her more at ease in Auntie's pool on the weekends, so far every weekend allowed by weather we've been at her house for at least one hour. Some times I think it's better when she is alone without a friend.

Andrew

It isn't that I don't want to walk or talk with him any more, it's that he irritated me. He doesn't listen worth a shit, which I can live with but EVERYTHING is about sex. There is more to life than that. He also put down my husband and things are better now between us and it wasn't necessary that he say what he said. I'm tired of hearing how much he has blue balls. Get over it!

July something

I'm in one of those moods. Not a good one. I'm grumpy today. Donna helped earlier this morning massage my shoulders and talk with me. I walked vigorously today at lunch without Andrew... Not in the mood for it at all. I should have said something but I respectfully declined. I might later but I'm too grumpy as of yet.

Don't get tomorrow off because Laurel said no. I'm still pouting about that. I'll get over it, and have next Thursday off to play at the beach. Taty was sad about it, but straightened up quickly.

7/14/05

It's my uncle's birthday today. At least he made it another year. I heard a Garth Brooks song "the dance" that just brought me to tears, very touching. Reminded me of my dad, and the here after I guess. I was vulnerable, what can I say. Lovely song and video though.

We had The BEST party every for Tatyana. We had about 40 people there. She got 7 Bratz dolls, only one duplicated, the Sports Bratz. She got so many things, she was exhausted by the end. Her and Heather wanted to stay together, but besides that they had a great time, all of them. It was awesome, truly awesome. She was on her best behavior and did so well! My mom was very impressed. She did have some issues afterwards though, a bit overwhelmed. She is doing better now. She doesn't have nearly all of them opened yet, but I don't want her to either. There would be things all over the place!

Glad we leave at 4:00 tomorrow! Woo Hoo!

7/9/05

Saturday work just like Teresa's says. The good thing is that I also have things to do today. I'm so happy about not working Monday. We might go shopping tonight for Taty's present. Depends on if TJ has a busy day or not.

7/6/05

Not a bad day. Could be worse, it can always be worse. I'm glad the week is short, except that I have to work this Saturday again. Not happy about that. I don't think I'll get paid OT either, being that Monday was a holiday. That sucks too. I'm off Monday however, that won't help my case though. I want 3 days off. I do leave early one day next week too because Taty has a Dr. appointment.

Didn't take a walk last night, but I think I will tonight. Taty didn't remind me, but I was so tired. I'm well rested now and think I'll try to get on track again. My arms got fatter and that bothers me. I must get the fat off!

7/5/05

Very tired today. It was a good weekend though.

Note to Melissa: I did call this weekend, you just didn't answer the phone is all...I should have left a message. I hope you had a good 4th of July.

Class is beginning soon! I hope I do well, I think I should if I apply myself of course.

Should be a fairly smooth week. Boss is out on vacation, Melanie is out today as well. I called and spoke to her briefly this weekend, but she was a bit short so I was too. We sure had it all packed into one weekend though. It was non-stop all weekend. I am so glad I have another 3 day weekend coming up! Taty's birthday is in one week from today. I think we are ready, except for the presents. We will be getting those on Friday probably.

We bought a new BBQ this weekend. Had mom over for the BBQ, it was great fun, she really had a good time. I got her to walk with me for a short distance but none the less I DID get her to walk! She was quite out of breath but she made the effort. The first time was at Auntie's house and there is a park across the street from her house. I invited her to walk with me, and she actually took me up on it. The shock factor for me was like WOW! So, we all did. She walks really slow and stops a lot. I think it's because her foot hurts and she mentioned her ankle too. Then, after we ate dinner I drove over to her place to take out the trash and yard debris for her, and bring in the plants sitting on the back patio. I told Taty that we would go across the street to Gold's Gym where they have a swing set for her to play on. Then, mom saw how incredibly close it was and walked across the street to us. Then, Taty had to "go" so we went back across the street. I wanted to get some new shoes, but they were already closed, so we went home after that. TJ had made us some Daqueri's at home, and mom actually drank one with us. I haven't drank with her since I was a teenager. The BBQ got a little exciting, when it burst into flames and melted the handle. We got it under control though, and the food was outstanding! He BBQ'd Johnsonville Brats (mild), Boneless BBQ ribs (beef), a hot dog for Taty and 3 hamburger patties from our freezer. Mom made 2 kinds of potato salad, one with onions and one without and they both were outstanding as well. I bought Ambrosia and forgot to bring it out! TJ will eat it though.

We spent a bit of money this weekend, but pay day is just a few days away. I did buy myself a new curling iron, tried it and liked it. Made sure it came with a warranty. I have enough money to get myself either a nice outfit or a pair of shoes. I haven't decided which I want to do yet. I know I will be getting a pair of sandals from TJ, he said he would buy for me not out of my money. I need to replace 2 pairs of my black shoes for work with a new pair and my white squeaky shoes need to go as well. I'm not sure how I will do it all just as of yet, but I will be saving my money.

I hope I haven't outdone myself with this Monday coming up, picking up and planning and all that. I'm sure it will all work out for the best. I will need to make calls on Sunday to assure everyone will be there who said they would. I have to pick up a few kids to ensure they make it, besides that it should work out well....

It was my grandma's birthday on July 3rd. Another year has gone by without her. I miss her and think of her often. I think of my dad too. I talked to Taty about it, and she also agrees and thinks of them both often. My grandpa isn't taking it so well...I feel he is VERY lonely and wants to go be with her. He is tired of being alone, lonely and seeming like no one cares for him since grandma is gone. I don't get over like I used to. I wish I would spend more time with him but I don't. Life is so busy, he makes no effort to call or come over. I see him when I can, and enjoy the time I have with him. They went on Saturday to the grave site to put flowers on her head stone and say a few words. It really hits him when they go there to see her. I don't want to see him go, but I hate to have him so miserable and alone. My Aunt misses her just as much as grandpa. She claims not to have any friends to confide in other than grandma. I try to be there for her, but I cannot take the place of her and wouldn't try to. I just try to be there for Auntie when she needs me she knows she can confide in me. That's the most I can do. I so wanted to go swimming at Auntie's on Monday, but Mother Nature prevented that from happening! I had Taty in her swim suit to go in the pool, but without Auntie or me in there, she wouldn't do it. I have her on the waiting list for swimming lessons at Mt. Hood C.C. Should be in the next few months or so. TJ was even thinking of taking some himself. I haven't checked on it further because I'm not sure if he is serious or not. If in fact he is, then I will find out more info for him. I'd like us to be able to go to the swim park out by Clackamas as a family and have fun doing it, once we all can swim together without the fear factor. I love the water and hope that Taty takes after me. It isn't TJ's fault, he's dround a couple of times and that's why he doesn't "do" water. I have friends with a boat and Taty has gone with us once on it. She loved it! I do to, but TJ was leary and wouldn't go.

July

I even first thing this morning reset the calendars in the house! I'm so with it and amaze myself. I'm ready for lunch and it's a while out yet. No lunch with Teresa today since she is leaving early. I should call MELISSA and wake her ass up for leaving such a naughty note in my blog about how she doesn't have to work today! Bitch! So I think I'm over that now, but was extremely tempted to call at 5 minutes to 9 this morning just to let her know what I think about her not having to work today, and not only posting such a thing on my blog, but others as well.

I still have had no response from MELISSA on her moving/living situation or arrangement. Maybe it's something that shouldn't be broadcast? Maybe it's a secret, shhhh!

I wish I had a whole lot of nothing going on this weekend, but it's not the facts. But, we are selling the Cougar and I do get new shoes out of it. That I'm very excited for. I gave a referral to my Mary Kay consultant and she has given me my product that I had intended to pay for on Saturday when I turn in all the cans. Now I will be vesting my monies in other areas to accommodate me. I plan to get a new curling iron, new sandals, black shoes and who knows what else.